drowning

Hate feeling this way.
Feeling so lost.
Wanting to hide away
And forget the world.
Should be smiling.
But can't get past
The pain I feel.
Want to cry
Till the pain fades away.
The worst part is I don't know
The reason for the way I feel.
Why I just want to
Slip away into the darkness.
Why my heart feels like it is
Cracking and about to shatter.
Just want it to stop!
The thoughts going through
My head all black.
Want to just bleed it out.
Why do I feel this way?
Why can't I smile?
And why can't I find the reason?
Will I always be lost
In a sea of darkness?
Would it be easy
To sink under the
Dark waters?
My lungs filling
My heart and breathing slowing
Everything going dim.
Being released from this
Unknown pain.
But I have too much
To fight for.
I can't give up!
I have to find a way
To piece myself together.
I have too many reasons
To keep going.
Just have to find out
What's wrong with me.
But  I know I can make it through.

Written by: Angela Toole